I can’t believe it, 10 months and I’m out of here for good. I never have to look back and finally mine and Jim’s dream is coming true. I’m the happiest I’ve been in years to be honest. Just one thing needs fixed, then that’s me😊
I'm very small, for my age anyway. I love Alice in Wonderland and I'm disney obsessed. I dont trust people well and I come here to open up.. Read my 'About Me' page before you judge me.
I thought getting into edinburgh meant getting away from this place, but no.. It’s following me.
Stressed, that’s an understatement it I’m honest. I should be the happiest girl on the planet; and I don’t want to seem selfish- but I’m not. I got an audition for the best performance school in Scotland, but all I can do is worry. It’s next Friday. I need a musical song, and a song of my choice- both of which I’m stuck on. I have to prepare a monologue, which I have never done before so I don’t know what they expect. And then a jazz solo, helP! I don’t want to let anyone down. This is what I’ve worked for all my life and I’m terrified of failing. I need to ace this audition. So many people are behind me, I can’t let Craig, mum, Gareth or jim down. The amount of work Gareth has put into me, the time he has spent on me is unbelievable and this year he has been my rock. This is Jim’s dream, his baby girl finally getting a shot- but I’m so scared I don’t get in.
Then there’s school. This is finally my time to shine, and leave school - but if I don’t get in, I have to stay at school. I have three nabs next week- two on the same day, one a resit. I’ve had no time to study, no time to prepare. I can’t sleep at night for worrying. I don’t know what to do!
I feel so weak tonight, I’m absolutely terrified I end up in hospital again tonight. So much is going on in my head, I can’t handle anymore hair coming out- I really can’t. There’s only one person I want to talk to, but I hate them. I feel like I just need to scream and shout everything out that you’ve done to make me feel this way, then everything will be okay. But I can’t. You’re the reason I’m in this mess, you’re the reason I have let myself go. I don’t know what to do anymore, help